They too got to fly away

You think they will stay. But they too, got to fly away.   It is not always that you have the chance to bid the bye. Not always the strength to say the sorry. Not always the time to live the love. While you do, you and me must make every effort to say the…

Girl, you are strong

So many think of me a strong woman. And on most days I am asking myself, “Who the hell am I pretending to?” I feel so weak and low, vulnerable and broke, pained and cracked. And yet, I know of people who call me strong, while all the time in my head, I so am…

I wish to hear the two words.

For the days I hold my head up high, The days I droop low and sigh, I wish to hear the two words.   For the days I crash and cry, The days am scared and lie, I wish to hear the two words.   For the days I am lost and bare, The days…

#30to30: I believe in you

On days you want to give up, Hang on. This too shall pass.   On days, you lose confidence, Hang on, Someone, somewhere believes in you   On days you lose purpose, Hang on, there is only one you.   On days you want to break and cry, Hang on, You have gotten this far….

#30to30:The one with the weight loss.

I realize whatever I write, most of the attention still goes to my weight loss. I am extremely happy that this has worked for me.  I know how stressful it can get to lose weight and win self confidence. I have felt so terrible on days. One such day, a friend told me, “ If…

#30to30:Who chooses our religion?

For the first time, I answered the question I have expected all along, “Umma who chooses our religion?” my eight year old asked while we were driving home last night.I always knew this would come. “If God made us, couldn’t he chose to put all of us in one religion.” There were many innocent doubts…

#30to30:I ache for a girl!

I am a mother of two boys. An eight and a four. It is awesome, this thing that moms are made of. Such a proportional mix of ingredients that can barely ever go wrong. Seven year old Yaani told me one day, “Ma, you have gotten very short. See, I am almost next to your…

#30to30:We are a story

Within us very day, some stories are born and some die. Some are big. Some,heavily small. None, inconsequential. I am named after a river in Hawaii, I remember Pa mention more than once. When the world was in a momentary quiet from quite a few issues in 1988, Pa looked gleamingly at his first born….

#30to30:What is life without a friend?

I always forget her birthday. She is my best friend. I did that yesterday too. Every year on different days, she calls me. Tells me, “Today is Teenu’s birthday. Don’t forget to wish.” “Its Babil’s birthday. Wish him ok.” “Its her birthday. Its her birthday. Its their anniversary. It is his birthday.Its her birthday Don’t…

#30to30:From fat to fit, in my head.

There was a time I would feel nauseous and light headed if someone told me I put on weight. I have broken down a several times in trial rooms. Cried and hated myself. I wouldn’t fit into a size I wished I fit into. I starved. I was never convinced no matter who told me…