Its quite strange why I think of Helga today. Her hair, the brightest shade of red, cut just below her ears, her English a struggle and her body, wobbly and white. We met her at Kaprun in Austria. We had just gone up to Kitzsteinhorn and got down dreary with the sun hitting the snow,…
We are 5 year olds
Every time I get to shower, my 5 year old brings to the door of that courtroom, an issue that requires immediate judgement. And today it was this, “Umma, Yaani called me a loser.” Some other days it is, “Yaani called me a noob.” “Yaani called me a baby.” “Yaani says I dont have friends”…
Oh dear, are you a feminist?
“Oh dear, are you a feminist?” I looked up once in the eye that asked the woman in me a question such as this. “Give me a reason, a reason to believe I shouldn’t be one. A reason for that matter, any woman shouldn’t or wouldn’t be a feminist. As I sat…
They too got to fly away
You think they will stay. But they too, got to fly away. It is not always that you have the chance to bid the bye. Not always the strength to say the sorry. Not always the time to live the love. While you do, you and me must make every effort to say the…
Go Girl, Fight for it
This is a life of a moment. Everything that happens here, takes one moment to come about, change, destroy, have and lose. This life is less about days and nights. More, moments and memories. Who among us isn’t afraid? Who doesn’t fear that a moment will change lives forever? And some fears are fears that…
Girl, you are strong
So many think of me a strong woman. And on most days I am asking myself, “Who the hell am I pretending to?” I feel so weak and low, vulnerable and broke, pained and cracked. And yet, I know of people who call me strong, while all the time in my head, I so am…
I wish to hear the two words.
For the days I hold my head up high, The days I droop low and sigh, I wish to hear the two words. For the days I crash and cry, The days am scared and lie, I wish to hear the two words. For the days I am lost and bare, The days…
#30to30: I believe in you
On days you want to give up, Hang on. This too shall pass. On days, you lose confidence, Hang on, Someone, somewhere believes in you On days you lose purpose, Hang on, there is only one you. On days you want to break and cry, Hang on, You have gotten this far….
#30to30:The one with the weight loss.
I realize whatever I write, most of the attention still goes to my weight loss. I am extremely happy that this has worked for me. I know how stressful it can get to lose weight and win self confidence. I have felt so terrible on days. One such day, a friend told me, “ If…
#30to30:Who chooses our religion?
For the first time, I answered the question I have expected all along, “Umma who chooses our religion?” my eight year old asked while we were driving home last night.I always knew this would come. “If God made us, couldn’t he chose to put all of us in one religion.” There were many innocent doubts…
some stories are big.some,heavily small. 